After spending hours at the hospital last night the last thing I wanted when I got home was company. All i wanted was to curl up in bed watch a movie and pass out. I live in a basement apartment with my own entrance, however can hear every little footstep my landlords and there family take, so it didn't surprise me when I heard a couple of subtle taps and bangs and so I just rolled over and tried to close my eyes. When I heard my door opening I screamed...The only person that would be coming in would be my cousin if he was in town and went to the bar and needed somewhere to crash, but he was away helping his dads friend at the cottage. As I walked out of my bedroom all I see is BEN...goofy look on his face not realizing he had nearly given me a heart attack.
For Ben everything is physical...for me on the other hand I have fallen and am having trouble picking up the pieces. it hurts me when he does this appearing act followed directly by a disappearing act. Last night I finally took a stand. I told him that he can't come over and just expect to fool around and leave...I told him that he can't just over expecting shit because it hurt me to see him leave time after time. He tried to make me believe that he would change but I know him awe to well he'll come back another day unexpected and I'll let him...Let's just hope he grows up asap and we can work out our differences...
Xo Smashley
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